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On My Way to Absence

On My Way to Absence is Damien Jurado's sixth full-length album. It was released in 2005 and was Jurado's second release on Secretly Canadian records. The album was produced by his frequent collaborator Eric Fisher. Jurado has referred to the album as "a tribute to jealousy".

Lyrics

White Center

Heard they shot another

No one knows the reason

It didn't make the paper

It's just another white lie

Here in White Center


Tonight they gather flowers

Sunday pack the churches

Morning comes too slowly

For us who feel like victims

Here in White Center


Turn off your headlights

Here comes a cop car

Music for the bad boys

Music for the good boys

Here in White Center


Lottery

Misfortune, got you like a sickness

The saints and angels all agree

Trouble sure as trouble sees it

I need it in writing to believe

To believe


The target was your heart in the beginning

Now there digging soft ground for your grave

I hope the mourners will bring plastic flowers

They'll drink to your death with pink champagne

Pink champagne


Now I hear your widow crying

Her weeping I made into this song

It's popular with the disco dancers

They'll play it on the radio all week long

All week long


Misfortune, got you like a sickness

And the saints, the angels all agree

Trouble sure as trouble sees it

I need it in writing to believe

To believe

Big Decision

Made a big decision
Think I left you out

Got a lot of problems
Think I'll work it out


Lion Tamer

We said goodbye a year ago
We sat within the farmhouse old
you know, don't you?
I went to the house alone
The power out, no telephone
You know, you'll know

The gun in the drawer
The long distance call
A story to tell

Patience drifts into the sound
You are nothing to me now
I need time to figure out
Save us now before we drown

Hello, goodbye so nice we met
I'll be easy to forget
You know, you'll know
An empty bed a sailing boat
The saddest song we ever wrote
You'll know, don't you?

It's all for the best
It's not what it seems
The gun in the drawer
The long distance call
A story to tell

Patience drifts into the sound
You are nothing to me now
I need time to figure out
Save us now before we drown

Fuel

I was born in this town
My name taken from here
Three sisters and a brother
Who all died before me

When wickedness takes you
Like a child of its own
Nobody will befriend you
Nobody will defend you

I murdered the law here
I took on God here
So in place of your sins

I bring you a Judas

So mother, burn my body for fuel
Oh, mother, burn my body for fuel

They say I'm a story
But the legend's all wrong
I was forced out of town
But kept in this song

See, it was you who made me
It is you who must take me
Love me or hate me
I'm still your son

So mother, burn my body for fuel
Oh, mother, burn my body for fuel
So mother, burn my body for fuel

Simple Hello

A simple hello would've been nice, instead you walked right by
I do recall we used to be friends, has it slipped your mind
I used to call you on the telephone each and every night
Every time I see you with him, I think why even try

I think I've had enough, I think I've lost my mind
I think I've had enough, I think I've lost my mind
This time, this time

We used to be the best of friends, I guess now things have changed
You're far too busy with making out, do you still know my name

I think I've had enough, I think I've lost control
I think I've had enough, I think I've lost control
So it goes, so it goes

I think I've had enough, I think I've lost my mind
I think I've had enough, I think I've lost my mind

Sucker

With both eyes closed I blew out his windows
A cheap shot I know, but someone had to do it
"It isn't like he deserves it," that's easy for you to say
He's not our kind; he's not your type
Just look into his eyes

On my side of town we let the lights go down
Get out our knives and go for a long drive
I'm nothing special, a yard sale collectable for your table
Eventually you'll too gather dust like the rest of us
Left out to rust

So tell me tonight, can we be magnetic
Lightning will strike and some of us will get it
Now that I'm social, I'm at your disposal, a chair at the table
Eventually you'll too gather dust like the rest of us
Left out to rust

I Am the Mountain

Hello dessert heat, when did you leave me undone
A bastard son to the wind that blows me your direction

The houses in the meadows have all but shed their skin
Now a boneless shadow that lies among the lilies

How long can you keep your distance
Who shall be my witness

The mountain said to his daughter, The hill shall be your husband
Leave me now volcano, to destroy all God has given


Night Out For the Downer

Surley, I don't blame you
For not wanting to hang out tonight
I'm all that you accuse me
I'm a sinking ship, tied to my lover's waist

When I open up
Is when you're closing down
Surely why don't we

Surely what you're asking?
And I'm not sure what you want from me
I can't be all you wish for
I'm a sinking ship tied to my lover's waist


Northbound

Northbound open, use left hand lane
I drive to a place where no one knows who I am
Tail lights broken, stop lights out
I speed without caution on a road made of ice

My body an engine, my car is a train
I don't feel guilty for the hurt or pain
Telephone message we all ring twice
I speed without caution on a road made of ice

Icicle

I did not recognize you
You're playing with your face
Through your eyes I do despise you
There's not a person that I hate but you.

When I could reach you from a distance
When I could sail upon the horizon
I left behind all those who mattered
The memory's gone, they're foggy to me

you'll see

I will not argue with you
There's only blackness in your heart
In the buildings that you tore down

with your mind

No on told me you had feelings
They kept it secret and away from me
What would I give to have them silent
Their mouths all taken from them

When I could reach you from a distance
When I could sail upon the horizon
I left behind all those who mattered
They're all not gone, just blurry memory
You'll see

I will not argue with you
There's only blackness in your heart
In the buildings that you tore down

with your mind

A Jealous Heart is a Heavy Heart

I woke up this morning
With death at my window, singing
Come out, come with me
It's friendship that I seek

and conversation
He left you a widow,

a dress made of shadow

he can't see through


And while he's out swimming,

he leaves you drowning in sorrow



You've convinced me he loves you
But he doesn't know you like I do
I bring you treasure,
A love you can measure, an island
A home on a hillside, a castle,

a gravesiteto sleep in


So while he's out swimming,

he leaves you drowning in sorrow


Grow old with me